我不是一个好朋友

trying to sleep like at 11 plus but yet until now not asleep
was thinking about a lot of stuffs as usual

i want someone to talk to

but sometimes, i don't know how to open up myself

i really don't know what to say.
i'm me.
i hate the way i am.
i don't know.
why am i feeling this way.

我很矛盾
没人看得清我自己
就连我自己
也不懂自己